It Can't Always Be About Money

None of us are perfect because most of us started in the same spot: lost with our money

"After a visit to the beach, it's hard to believe that we live in a material world." - Pam Shaw

Welcome to another Tuesday blog post written by yours truly. Did you know it's already been over two and a half years? That's right. For 30 months now, I've been sharing ideas and personal stories surrounding my debt, savings, and goals.

I've fallen in love with this industry, its opportunities to educate myself and others, and the joys that money can bring rather than the stress that money can cause.

To some that may seem short, and to others that may seem long. In the end -- I'm just happy that I've found a passion.

You see, how much space you give money in your life can vary. It can vary based on your desires, your lifestyle, and even your fears. Over the past two years, my brain has become wired to think about my financial situation non-stop. I'm constantly thinking about how I can increase my income, where I can grow financially, and what I need to do to reach my career goals.

And as much as I love money -- there are days when everything else in my life seems far more important. Days when I just spend frivolously, forget about saving for the future, and focus on nothing.

Because, honestly -- It can't always be about money.

Just like it can't always be about spreadsheets, cubicles, backpacking, napping, scrolling, reading. Nothing is meant to be your always. She says, wondering why she's suddenly spewing philosophical phrases that she doesn't even understand herself.

This year has been a huge lesson in balance for me.

I'm finding myself constantly challenging what I want, where I should be, and what I should be doing. It's safe to say that my anxiety has taken on its own personality. Among this and other health issues, I am exhausted all of the time. I'm happy and energetic while at the gym or playing sports -- but unfortunately, I am unable to do that for 8 hours a day. Although, it would be nice if life actually were always about soccer.

Those of us who become engulfed in the online universe of financial blogging end up becoming obsessed -- in the best way possible. We live, breathe, and sleep personal finance.

None of us are perfect because most of us started in the same spot: lost with our money.

Now we're all thriving, making moves, and constantly looking for whatever is next. Where will our next financial a-ha moment arrive? Will we buy something foolish this week, will our friends bring up an interesting idea about tax returns (lol @ tax talk with friends as an example), or will we merely want to provide some basic information to our readers?

I didn't start writing Mixed Up Money to become an expert in finances.

And I still don't want to become an expert. One of the reasons I find money so interesting is because I constantly have to educate myself and try to make those complex definitions remotely interesting.

When I had to spend the weekend researching deductibles, I learned that I truly can turn any topic into an analogy. I learned that insurance is still a world of the unknown for me. But most importantly, I learned that sometimes I need to shut off my phone, and close my laptop.

Before you start freaking out, thinking that this blog post is going to turn into an "I'm quitting the Internet forever" rant, it's not. I am still wildly in love with my blog, and don't intend to stop anytime soon. However, I do want to share with you all parts of my journey -- including this.

There is more to life than a balanced budget.

Through first hand experience, I am aware of how difficult it can be to focus on your financial situation if you are struggling to stay healthy. I'm constantly battling with myself to take time off from my side hustle, book more holidays, and focus on resolving my many worries. All of which end up putting me into this vicious cycle that ends in me wanting more money that I don't truly need.

But -- isn't that what we all want? More money. Less debt. More vacations. Less work. More action. Less talk.

Over the past few months, my financial a-ha moment was realizing that until I balance my day to day life, it will be hard to balance my cheque book. Not unlike most people, dealing with my health, reading all of the horrible stories on the internet, and watching friends go through dramatic changes has made me realize that there are other things going on in life that require necessities other than a savings account.

Money can't be the driving factor in every decision I make in life. And if I let it be, I'll constantly feel stuck.

Trusting that I've built a solid foundation in saving for my future, preparing for emergencies, and the ability to afford exciting adventures is step one.

Step two is balancing act -- but at that point my stilts should be as thick as tree stumps. <--- look at that, another analogy.

Have you ever had to step back and realize that money isn't everything? Let me know in the comments.